going to grow.

So I know I said last week was busy but perhaps I should just stop saying that because I guess that’s just life; busy! Anyways this week my stomach has been turning as I prepare for surgery [happening on Monday, May.9].. I feel sick to my stomach when I think about having two titanium rods screwed into my spine but at the same time I’m excited!

Perhaps I will start with what I am having done. I have what is called scoliosis, which is basically a curve in your spine. Most people will say, ‘you look normal’ or ‘you don’t have bad posture’ but most of the time, and in my case, the curve [as you will see below] will make a hip appear larger than the other. The curve is more side to side, versus something that makes you appear like you have bad posture. I hope that makes sense.

I was thirteen when my mom first noticed that my one hip was looking ‘bigger’ than the other. As time went on we went to the doctor and realized that it was indeed scoliosis. Since I had no pain we let it be. As time went on surgery become more of an option since my pain has definitely increased. It is hard to travel and hard to wear clothes that should look good on me, but because of my back won’t look as it should. So before I move away to Uni and start my life on my own this summer was the best time to have surgery. As planned for a year I just received the date a week and a half ago and now time is flying by. So I am super nervous and just can’t wait to wake up in recovery and start the battle of healing and becoming accustomed to this new trait.

Basically I have to think of the pros, the pain and what not isn’t even that scary for me. I have a high pain tolerance and do not mind what is to come. I think most of it is fear of the unknown.

Bonus: I get to go shopping for a new skin tight dress. Something that will show off everything. [No one said I had to wear it out. Actually I will probably just wear it around the house for the next 2 months in excitment!]

So this week I am preparing for a weeklong stay at the hospital, which isn’t exactly the summer vaca I had wished for, but I know the long run I will be extremely glad I did it.

Scoliosis X-Ray

This is an x-ray of a person who has a '78°' curve. After the rods they are '15°'. My curve is much lower at only 45° so my curve isn't as bad.

So I guess I can call this week busy? Ya, it will be.

Oh! And also, once my back is straightened I will gain about 1.5" in height. Gulp. 6'1.5"? Oh my.

-B